Outwardly, everything in my life would have looked perfect to somebody looking in. But on the inside I knew I wasn’t happy and something was missing. I went to 902 and at one point Pastor Ryan starts talking about the angels in heaven are rejoicing for the one person who gives their life. I remember getting down on my knees praying, “God, I don’t know if you exist. But if you do, I know that I need you in my life.